ddrboy's Diaryland Diary

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Lick Shots

Ok, lets see if I can keep track of my life today/yesterday/this week. Today is Saturday/Sunday. Hmm, what did I do this week...

Wednesday, I think I changed the way my diary looks...go to the persons site...lol, it on a link under the tree. I'm tired so bear with me.

Thursday, I think Red came over. LOL, he was here from like 11pm till 6am. Damn, he's so hot to me, and I like him, but you know...I don't know! Anyway, Red and I were just listening to music and watching Bj�rk videos...I love her! I'm sorry, but I'm a bad boy around Red, and so is he!

Friday, Ooh, Red and I went to The Faultline.

We got drunk and we did stuff with peeps. LOL! Um, I got some stuff on my glasses...OMG! Anyway, we saw alot of guys from Gen-X Bears there and Red kinda freaked. Only cause he don't want some of the guys to see what he does there at the Faultline. I saw Miguel...

Mike, Miguel, is someone from my past. He is a person who had a hard time coming out in high school, so he did it after a while, and then he went back to my high school for our Project 10 group. Then he went to work a Bienestar, an AIDS prevention thingy I used to volunteer for. We kept in touch for a while, but then we drifted. I saw him last night and I was shocked to find him there at the bar, but there he was. He still looks good.

Saturday, today, I went to Pechanga Casino and had a blast. My cousin; the one who's hair I did, whose name is Jackline, showed up and played on a machine for the first time. She was winning before everyone got tired and decided to leave. She's so cool, I like her! I haven't seen her in such a long time, that we both thought we were so different in ages. She's 20, I'm 21!!!!! Well, we had fun and gambled a bit. I won, and mostly lost, but I went with only five bucks, but I played for 6 freakin hours...You try to do that! I know how to play. Last time, with 5 bucks, I came home with $300!

Ha ha ha!

Let's see, anything else I might have missed? I changed my sheets, Nick is talking to another boy, Johnny wants me to go to his place, but I just don't know if I can...I get all weirded out. I'm a strange bitch, you know that! I can fuck around, and not give a shit, but emotionally, I can't. I can't fuck around emotionally, I feel really bad, and that's why I can't be with Jeff...I would get attached. Ugh! Oh well, I messed with Jeff's feelings and Mamma Walter, kiester98, was having a fit!

Asshole! Ugh, Bitch!

I had the flu or something like that this week...weird. The heat does that to me! Ugh!

I think that's all...Hmm?

Oh shit, speaking of Love...LOL

Chaz...

Chaz is this guy I was kinda seeing for a while in February. I thought I was seeing him, well, that's what he led me to believe. We went out and had fun, I spent the night at his place many times, you know, got to know each other, and then...He met Joe, my ex, and...

SHIT! They clicked and they acted upon that...IN FRONT OF MY FACE!!! They started sucking and fucking each other and tried to include me in it. Now, I know that even though I thought it would be kinda cool to try something like that with someone I trusted, I didn't like it. I got pissed and jealous. Chaz led me to think that he was interested in me, when we wasn't, at all. Joe told me, that Chaz said that he didn't like me from the first day we met, but he still called, still danced, still invited me for dinner, to spend the night, suck my dick...and so forth! He led me on, but I think it was Karma. But now, Chaz paid for what he did to me, this boy he liked a lot, did the same thing Chaz did to me...that boy led him on and hurt him BAD! KARMA, BITCHES...IT BITES YOU GOOD!

I don't speak to Joe that much. I guess he hurt me in a way that's not forgivable, but I do try to move on.

I MEAN, COME ON, I'M LATINO AND LATINOS DON'T MOVE ON TOO WELL...JUST LOOK AT ME WITH SAM, SHIT! On the way home from the casino, we passed by where the 10, 210 and 57 meet in San Dimas and I thought of him. FUCK! I WASN'T EVEN WITH HIM, SHIT! He was honest with me, even though he lied to me at the same time...I think. I would say I digress, but I totally forgot what that means! LOL!

Sam, again, I'm sorry!

Anyway, it's 3:04 in the am, and Walter just came online. He went to the Bridge, this new and fancy movie/restaurant/bar out by Marina Del Rey...I think. I wanna go, but for a movie it's $15 bucks..SHIT!

What else? I also forgot...I made a diaryring for Girth and Mirth and a Bears ring...check them out by clicking on my Rings page. Thanks!

I think that's it!

Night all!

3:06 a.m. - Sunday, Jun. 30, 2002

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

previous - next