ddrboy's Diaryland Diary
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Red over Jeff
How weird that when I finally feel better and happier about myself...there are people who try, maybe not knowingly, but try to bring me down.
Read this to understand Jeff is this really sweet guy, whom I met at Pistons. He's a great guy, I know, but Red and I hit it off better. I don't know how long Red and I will last, but I hope we do.
I don't know why, but Walter is upset that I didn't choose Jeff. I'm sorry, but I have to go with my gut. I feel that Red is he right choice for me, and Jeff isn't. I don't know what to say. Jeff is nice, but I like him, just not in a relationship way.
Now, Red and I were having fun. Now that we are together, that's stopped and we are now working on "us". I mean, we go out, talk, go to dinner, talk, spend time together, and talk. We talk all the time about anything and try to get to know each other better.
I feel less than Red. I mean, he's cute and I don't feel as cute as him.
Fuck, I don't know...Now I'm just pissed cause everything I say will be read by Jeff and Walter. Fuck. I don't know what's up. I don't wanna write anymore tonight.
Tomorrow.
Rich
1:48 a.m. - Friday, Jul. 19, 2002
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